Tell Me Where It Hurts



For a few pages, I thought that veterinary medicine would be my new career.  But I am too squeamish to trim Caper’s toenails so it’s not going to work out.  Dr. Trout selfconsciously follows in the tradition of James Herriot (All Creatures Great and Small) and he does a good job of explaining why and how veterinary medicine has come to look so much like human medicine and include chemotherapy and Neuticles



Full Moon in Public

The moment I step out the front door

my thoughts tear off

like they’re on three leashes

after five different squirrels.

The tulips this morning were

drawn up to their full height

fresh and reckless.

Last night I woke over and over

fuzzy thinking 

sliding around in butter and

swilling red wine.

Out of the sun,

junkies and bag collectors

debate themselves and find things

are not where they left them.

Pagans are in the meeting room.

After work

I will head straight home.

Eggs and Flour

Do you have eggs and flour?  If not, why not?  If yes, great.  You are rich.  You can make pasta.  Fresh pasta is the third great joy of this year and it is sitting patiently in your kitchen.

One of the many unpleasant consequences of losing my mother ten years ago was I lost any real enjoyment in the kitchen.  Cooking was one of her passions and whenever I tried it I would miss her.  I would become anxious and miserable. 

One of my favorite meals when I first moved to Brooklyn was as follows:

  • 1 can tuna, drained
  • 1 half eaten container low fat cottage cheese
  • 1 baggy of baby carrots, flavorless

I would mix the tuna into the cottage cheese and use the baby carrots as utensils.  No muss!  No fuss! 

Now I know the secret of cooking: all true joy is in action.  At lunch sometimes I sit and watch the sushi chefs silently slice and tweeze a full salmon into sushi size pieces, dressing it like it’s going to the Oscars.  

I can make you fresh pasta on a week night- two eggs, one cup flour, butter and parmesan- one hour and we can sit and eat.  Tell me everything.

The Confidence Artist

How is confidence to be learned?

The smoggy grey of the sky above grimy buildings during the day, 

the smirking bottom lip of the moon at night.

Entropy apparent, decay on all surfaces






peeling paint.

The common loss of things and people

points to a guilty verdict.

A few circumstances show instead a worldly indifference to good and bad. 

“Hey.”  And I turn from the bar to see a friend of my true childhood, gone for twelve years.

A slip of paper with my oldest friend’s Italian phone number passed to me by a stranger.

The tiny dog, waiting for me, alien to judgement.

That direction, that is where I want to go.